Catchy uppies... thoughts, updates and the like.

It's been quite a while since I've last posted. Guess I've put writing on the backburner recently. Yeah, but that's my love/hate/neglect relationship with blogs for ya =P I guess for the most part I haven't felt the need to use my blog as a way to deal with my emotions... possibly due to the fact that a) i haven't really had any emotional issues that i wanted to say out loud in a public forum and b) I've been otherwise pretty happy lately.

lol and then there's always the fact that i do suffer occasionally from bouts of laziness =P

Onto the update....

This weekend has been, for lack of another word, somewhat interesting. I've had both emotional highs and lows, with some details i'm obviously not going to put online, because really, I'm not so petty as to want to make someone look bad. And unfortunately, when you give the side of the story of the person who has been hurt, its inevitable that the other side looks bad. Ima considerate person dontya know. Real nicelike. That and I don't generally like talking bad about people... though there are few individuals who i really do not mind talking bad about.. well there are always exceptions. And i stand by my choices =P though admittedly i can only think of one that I'd put into that oh so special category of 'grade A fucker'. It really is a very select group after all.

But i digress.

May as well start with Friday night where, for reasons not to be said online (ask me and I might tell you... well in most cases i will =P) I was actually properly angry. Like I was not just pissed. I was angry. Now, if you know me, i rarely ever get properly angry. EVER. But the sense of betrayal and hurt that i felt at that particular point, yeah... it made me angry. Here's the irony, i wasn't so much angry at the person who caused it as i was angry at the fact that at that point I regretted the feelings i had in the past... well that and i realised just how absolutely led on i had been.

The first thing got to me because i never want to regret my emotions. Ya know, feelings felt so long as based on something are good. Even if ultimately whatever it was didn't work out and you feel hurt because of it. See... those are fine. They make your memories more vibrant... but ya know... when you find out that what you felt was based on lies (or what you thought was lies) well it just makes the emotions not something you'd want to hold on to.

Or at least it does for me.


The second one... well that's really obvious aint it lol. The worst bit is that really I knew at the very beginning that it was possible i was being led on. But i was... shall we say.... selectively blind. Guess i wanted to believe what i wanted to believe. I'll say this though, it really does aboslutely positively suck... the realisation that you were led on. I don't like the idea that i was fucked around with, and i don't like the thought that I put myself in the situation where i got fucked around with even more.

But with all that said, i'm over all of that. It took me till Saturday night before i managed to let it go, (which for me is surprisingly long... most times i go bed and when i wake up i'm not angry any more) but its done. Decided that this was an issue i really shouldn't care about anymore, and so really I don't. That whole package... the situation, the emotions, the person involved... i don't care about anymore. Totally.

It, all of it, don't deserve the time i've given it. I don't intend to give it more time.

Moving on...

Saturday night was interesting in so as much that I was hanging out with a totally different group of people. I had been at Yue's farewell party which was pretty cool.... though I have to say Yue gets incredibly hoochy when she's drunk. Hoochy btw isn't my word, but i think it is very fitting. lol but she's awesome =D and i do have to say... the girl knows how to move... lol if her lil mini strip dance was anything to go by. (no stripping occured mind you). So i headed to town with her, her boy, a white chick, a thai chick who likes white guys and a white guy who like guys too. Awesome people all :D I ended up going to Fat eddy's which is down in his lordship's lane, then going to the concrete club which was a dance club (trance and the like). I will say this, i REALLY missed my hip hop last night. I mean i'm cool with trance dancing , but after a while i really get SO dizzy. Too much head movement aye lol

But on the whole was an interesting experience =D always cool to make new friends!

Now i said that this weekend also had a high point and it did. Had alot of fun at Taylor's msitake today, just bumming round with Eva (NAMELY BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE I TXTED WAS BUSY... I MEAN SERIOUSLY WHY IS IT THAT EVEYRONE"S ALWAYS BEEN BUSY WHEN I TRY TO ORGANIZE THINGS.. ARGH!) but we spent the time climbing round the rocks, which was just alot of fun! We'll be going back, namely due to the fact we didn't really have enough time to really explore but we've found ourselves a new beach! Btw... i lost my jandals in the ocean... the current swept it off my feet >.< so currently i am jandal-less... TT_TT

But yeah... thats me weekend in a nutshell ^_^

Laters All
ken

Gangsta Philosophy

Is life about the carats you blinging or the character you bringing?

Word life foo...


I'm such a horrible gangsta lol

Of lazy sunday afternoons

Today I got absolutely NOTHING productive done....

but you know what?

I wouldn't have traded this day for the world.

Its days like this which just... i don't know... remind you of the simple pleasures in life maybe? The day pretty much went like this... woke up... went to eat kfc with Va, Nic and Xtina... Va left early cos of work so we went to the hill with the cherry blossoms and just literally sat for two hours. Well not just sitting , but we were out there awhile.

And it was FANTASTIC.

Actually come to think of it, there was alot of sitting round doing nothing at first. Me and Nic were just enjoying the sun and talking bout stuffs... which realy was nice actually.

There was this jap family enjoying the day too, and ya know.... watching them play... that was really cool. There's something really nice (not sure if that's the right word) about watching a happy family together. Makez a guy want to have one of his own it does...

Well anyways Xtina came back from lib and we ended up doing cartwheels and handstands and stuff. now I haven't done this sorta thing in public since i was a kid... and damn... i loved it. Lol just clowning around on the hill.... in the sun.... under the cherry blossoms.... man that was awesome!

But the best part came when we decided to try rolling down the hill.... now honestly....its.....

SO MUCH INCREDIBLE FUN !!!!

lol i know it sounds silly but rolling down a hill really is incredibly fun! like really really really FUN! loved it =D

I reckon that's prob the high point... but really today just been one of those days. Comfortable? yeah guess that's a good word for it.

Loved it... and its peaceful, fun, lazy sunday afternoons like this which makes life worthwhile

anyways i'm out~

Peace all!
~ken

Mini update

Lol because I said i would keep a record of gyming...

-did 10 mins interval training on treadmill... really ar.... my fitness so bad... T_T

-was going to go do weights, but met with jeffery so ultimately ended up playing squash. I'll work my biceps and shoulders tommorwo

ok... bed time bai bai all!
K

Ze new workout plan... day 1!

well its not quite a new workout plan, but i figure it'd be a good idea to just pu a rough summary of my workouts on blog. way I look at it, at the very least it givs me a way to check my progress.... lol though i really need to work on it. No stamina.. and need to get stronger...


10 mins of running - alternating between walking (5), jogging(9) and running(14) every minute. Seriously.... I shocked at my lack of fitness.... only could do 10 mins of that and by then was dying.. lol

So instead of my original plan of 30 mins of cardio decided to do some weights.

Two sets of ... lol i'm not sure what you call it. works the muscle at the top of the arm :P but only at 6kgs... need to strengthen.

One set of chest pulldown (10).... lol didn't check the weight setting on the machine.

Can't remember how many crunches i did... lol prob 20 i think :P hate ab workout >.<

2 sets (10) of chest press. Managed to do 88 kgs this time too. (but its a machine so its not quite like a proper bench press with free weights... =P but i don't have a spotter so i don't dare doing it the old fashioned way)

2 sets of tricep curls. Only set on 3 plates >.< lol my triceps need work... by the end of the second set was like dying lol

and that's my quick workout for today :D

Tommorow I go again! rar!

Laters ~
Ken

Thought of the day... and assorted random crap ^_^

Been awhile since I've posted, though really because I don't quite use my blog as a day to day diary thing, i guess that is to be expected. one can't be emotionally unstable, or thoughtful all the time. Lol well you can but i'm sure that leads to eventual madness... and I can't afford that quite yet. Lol i'm not rich enough for madness to be seen as merely being eccentric.

The power money has in the attachment of connotations. Think about it!

So anyways, was discussing with Joyce about a week ago concerning how people are defined. In big words, she found it unfair that male promiscuity is always seen in a, for the most part, more positive light than female promiscuity. In short... she hated that men who slept around were considered 'the man" while women who did the same thing were seen as sluts.

The way i view it, the reason that society treats men and women so differently lies in the roles men and women are expected to fulfill. And yes, you can throw the whole modern woman girl power ra ra ra line in my face, but truth be told, the roles expected of men and women in some ways have still remained greatly unchanged.

I am talking about the fact that men are supposed to be providers while women are seen as nurturers. The proverbial father figure and mother figure idea.

This point is fairly arguable, but here's my take on this.

In terms of these roles, the ideal man would be one who was capable, driven, strong. Capable of protecting, providing both for the financial needs (though this has changed somewhat with women now more determined to support themselves. That said, what woman would honestly not like their partner to be capable to support them if needed? I still believe that most women would find that attractive. not that their partner necessarily has to, but that if needed they can. Plus if he's rich he can buy you nice things right?) and emotional needs (Support, love, excitement ya know the usuals).

The thing is, arguably part of being the 'ultimate male' would be the capability to get alot of women. Now this is something that doesn't necessarily clash with the concept of loyalty which women do need... but I'll be honest with you. Women do seem to have an almost universal need to tamper or change their partners. Most would consider a man with a long list of "conquests" someone who'd be willing to change "just for them". The whole "he'd never do that to me... he loves me" thing.

Now this really is still a generalization, so all this would not necessarily apply to all women. But i'm arguing that as a matter of society in general it seems to me that therein lies one of the main reasons why men who are promiscuous (also known as man-whores, players etc.) are not seen in quite the same negative light.

Now in terms of women, ultimately the role still falls back to the whole mother figure ideal. A person to care for both them and their eventual children (lol though this is where things have kinda changed over the years... i'd still argue that this is still a valid concern) Now don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that a woman's role is still in the house and all that, rather its more on the emotional side of things. To care, to love etc. That sort of thing.

Why is this a factor in how women are treated in relation to sexual partners? Frankly i think its the idea that a man would not want a woman who's been sleeping around to be the mother of their children. Now this is in terms of long term commitment (which to me does mean marraige but people would disagree). Note though nowadays there is a difference when we talk about casual relationships, because then a person's sexual history wouldn't matter as much.

Still i do believe that its this 'mother' role that makes it more undesirable for women to be "sluts".

Realise this though, women are as guilty as men for the way things are. Women are as likely as men to call other women sluts and the like, so its not quite something where the men are oppresing the women. Women do a very good job of that too ya know.

Anyways that's enough from me. Do realise that once more this all really is just random musing, and it is based on generalities, but i do think there is something there. Feel free to drop me a comment or argue with me even :D i like discussions i do ^_^

laters all!
Ken

FARNEE SHIT!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ElpyNCl4oIQ

All you need to know is who prince is... lol this made me laugh !